i don't know what to do with my life...

Since I can remember, I've always wanted to be a pilot. Didn't matter what kind of pilot (though being a fighter pilot would be the coolest) as long I was flying, I'd be satisfied. Now that I find myself hot on the tail of actually achieving that goal, I'm not sure that I will actually be happy with it. Being in the military has really drained me of my motivation. To actually completely fulfill my dream, I'll have to remain in much longer than my original 6 year agreement and I don't know if I would actually be happy in doing that. These past nine months have really opened my eyes to how much I love my family, friends, and the town I still call "home". I don't know if I could take being stuck somewhere far away like this over and over and over again.

finally a "good" day.

kinda sad that the only days i consider "good" are the days that nothing bad happens. it use to be a good day actually had to have something good occur to be considered a "good day". but regardless, today was a good day. i got to bed early last night and got a good amount of sleep for once, i passed todays test with a 95%, and we didn't do anything in class except kick back and mess around. at 3 o clock we were able to leave.... before 6 o clock for the first time in a couple weeks. came back to my barracks and everything was in order, my name wasn't on the board for any bullshit, i didn't have to stand any watches, i didn't get stuck with any shitty cleaning job. all in all, i feel okay with today.

there's no place like home.

I never truly understood how true this statement was until now... wish i didn't have to be stuck in a shithole 2400 miles from home for me to figure that out....

New Jack

So this is my first blog. i never really used the blog feature on myspace so i really don't know what to write. i'm hoping the more i post, the more interesting the posts will become. but who knows, i might just use it as an outlet to whine and complain.